How I feel...

"I don't want another opportunity to learn & grow, she said. I just want to eat crackers & watch Oprah & pet my cat."

(Brian Andreas)

my first stitches

So, I was having a rough emotional day yesterday... and when I have rough emotional days, I should realize and remember that usually affects everything else I do, so I just need to sit still, watch a movie or stop and let myself be sad. When I don't do that, I realize how much of my emotions spill over on to other things I do, and most of the time, it's just not helpful.

Anyway, I'm still feeling sad/mad/upset about stuff, but I was making dinner last night and cutting an avocado and you know how you bring the knife down on the seed to get it out? My mind totally drifted right at that moment to what was making me sad and I came right down on my thumb.

I didn't even want to know the damage... I immediately ran it under some water and wrapped a paper towel around it and put pressure on it. It HURT! I called my sis to ask her what to do... I have never cut myself like that before. Longer story short, I finally got up the nerve to look at it when I thought I got the bleeding to stop and it looked GROSS. So, I called a church member who lives in the area and asked him where the nearest hospital was...He was in a meeting...

Then I remembered my friend Mannam and called her and she told me where the nearest urgent care was. Longer story shorter, I was able to drive myself there, she came and sat with me, and I got 3 stitches on my thumb.

I won't go into details because they still make me queasy... I could not handle it well and had to look away the entire time. I felt like I was 5 years old...although I think a 5 year old would have handled it better. :)

Now on painkillers and unable to use this thumb right now or get it wet until tomorrow, so it's a task, but thankful for support all around. I realized this is one disadvantage to living alone and still being new to an area, but thankful for people who are able to surround me.

Anyway, thanks again to Mannam and everyone who helped me out last night!

I would ask for prayers... for continued strength ... not for my thumb (hee hee), but for me and emotional strength in this time of what feels really hard... Thank you!

Dedicated to Nahyun!

So, if you haven't noticed, I love kiddos. I mean, I LOVE kiddos... I'm actually kind of sad that I'm not already a mommy and totally going through that phase of "I really want kids." Good thing I have the job I have and get to interact with them regularly, although I'm not sure that helps! :)

I'm sure I've mentioned her in a previous blog post, but I spend a little bit almost everyday with Nahyun (Natalie), Mannam and Stephen's baby girl. She's 10 months old now and she's crawling and getting bigger and more interactive by the minute! It's really fun and a privilege to be allowed to be part of a child's life so intimately, so for that, I'm incredibly thankful for Mannam and Stephen. I feel like she really knows who I am.

It's hilarious because we're trying really hard to get her to say "imo" which means "auntie" in Korean but she keeps looking at me and calling me "oppah" which means "big brother"... it's hilarious. She'll get it one of these days and my heart will leap with joy!!

Anyway, thought I'd post some pics!

If you click on this link, you can see a little video of her and me...she's usually a lot more talkative!

http://www.motionbox.com/videos/309dd1b5131fe8cabe

This is when I first met her in spring/early summer of 2008:

And more recently (like a month or so ago):

And just the other day:

I love my job... and my sis!

I mean, look at these pictures and tell me how I could NOT love my job!! :) Just thought it was about time to send some updated pictures of my life and the folks I engage with on a weekly basis! Just a taste as I enter into my sixth month!

I was also SO thankful that my sister Linda could come and visit me for the weekend from Seattle! We had a great time relaxing and going into San Francisco for some good food and walking around!

my parentals

My random/funny news of the day is that when I told my parents about my upcoming vacation to Hawaii, they thought it would be great for them to make their first visit too! So, pending approved vacation time for both of them, they might be joining me in Hawaii! It took all about 3 hours to put this plan into action upon first hearing... :)

I love my umma and appa!!